I Am Not Who I Once Was, Now What?

As I have tried to navigate through the grief and tried to help my children through their grief I realized something....Grief is messy and unpredictable and different for everyone!  It is different depending on who you lost.  The thought processing, the crazy emotions, what brings comfort...even the loss itself is different.  It is different losing a spouse or losing a child, it is different losing a sibling verses losing a parent.  It is even different losing a parent young or losing them as an adult.  There is also a big difference between a tragic death and a long term sickness.  They are all extremely painful  - none of them are any easier than the other but they ARE different.

Today I am processing a few thoughts...they are difficult and I only share them so you can understand this type of grief.  Each grief includes a loss.  My children are dealing with the fact that their father is going to miss important things in their lives like Taekwondo Tournaments, graduations, marriages, grandchildren....and it hurts.  They miss his humor and his wisdom!  They miss having him to go to when....Mom has had enough and is making them clean their room! (He would always come into their room and help them.)

But today I am processing who I am and who I am not.  It. is. hard.  

1. The two shall become one.

23 And Adam said:

“This is now bone of my bones And flesh of my flesh; She shall be called Woman, Because she was taken out of Man.”

24 Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother

and be joined to his wife,

and they shall become one flesh.

Gen 2: 23-24